alphienator

alphienator @ 2009-11-07T22:24:00

2009-11-08T03:24:47Z

Beer and Beethoven's complete symphony.. fun night.

So..

2009-10-19T14:15:27Z

Over the next few months my friend Adrian and I will be doing photos for his upcoming double album release.. the artwork and cover. So far so good.

Love you bubby.

Josh

...

2009-10-01T05:36:21Z

I dislike October very much.

Gianna.. I'm so proud of you

2009-08-15T21:49:18Z

♥

alphienator @ 2009-07-21T00:35:00

2009-07-21T04:36:35Z

I can't believe you didn't come :(

I found my new theme song.. lol.

2009-07-13T18:07:52Z

alphienator @ 2009-07-12T12:15:00

2009-07-12T16:17:20Z

tonight let's be lovers

tomorrow we'll go back to being friends

say goodbye

alphienator @ 2009-07-05T16:19:00

2009-07-05T20:20:23Z

Shane Bair... Rest Peacefully 1987 - 2009.

I loved you like a brother.

alphienator @ 2009-07-01T20:19:00

2009-07-02T00:24:38Z

Please.. Let me be right this time. ♥

alphienator @ 2009-06-29T01:14:00

2009-06-29T05:15:22Z

alphienator @ 2009-06-20T01:42:00

2009-06-20T05:42:40Z

Refer to Journal Post September 9, 2005.

alphienator @ 2009-06-04T10:34:00

2009-06-04T14:35:46Z

Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover boy
Cheers darlin'
I got years to wait around for you
Cheers darlin'
I've got your wedding bells in my ear
Cheers darlin'
You give me three cigarettes to smoke my tears away

And I die when you mention his name
And I lied, I should have kissed you
When we were running in the rain

What am I darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?

Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover man
Cheers darlin'
I just hang around and eat from a can
Cheers darlin'
I got a ribbon of green on my guitar
Cheers darlin'
I got a beauty queen
To sit not very far from me

I die when he comes around
To take you home
I'm too shy
I should have kissed you when we were alone

What am I darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?

Oh what am I? What am I darlin'?
I got years to wait...

alphienator @ 2009-05-26T03:44:00

2009-05-26T07:47:18Z

why do i struggle so badly to forget.. my memories are so vivid it drives me insane.

i keep replaying the day i left over and over again.. standing there.. wiping your tears from your cheek... it was the biggest mistake of my life leaving you.

Two Things

2009-05-09T06:28:26Z

Podcasts for my iPod touch are pretty damn awesome.. I downloaded a bunch of live concerts for free.

Second...I downloaded (paid) Beethoven's complete symphony for 10 bucks.. Performed by the London Symphony Orchestra. Can't wait to listen to it all. :)

And.. I miss watching you play... rather.. I miss not being able to see you behind all the other violinists while I pretend I can hear only you playing the violin. :P

alphienator @ 2009-04-24T01:40:00

2009-04-24T05:29:56Z

i won't mistake you
for problems with me
i won't let my moods
ruin this you'll see
i won't take everything good
and move it away
i won't be left dancing alone
to songs from the past

Would you stay home and keep
our memories warm with me
Would you give all you love
for a run at the past with me
i know you're sad even though
you say that you're not
i know you're scared even though
you say that you're not

i won't get mad when you say
things are getting too hard
i won't make all of your love
so scared to come through our yard
i won't scream in my head
and let it isolate me
i won't be left dancing alone
to songs from the past

alphienator @ 2009-04-24T00:31:00

2009-04-24T04:36:22Z

I won't regret saying this
This thing that I'm saying
Is it better than keeping my mouth shut
That goes without saying
Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been something I'd be good at
But now we'll never know
I won't be sad
But in case I go there
Everyday, to make myself feel bad
There's a chance that I'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do
I won't be out long
But I still think it better if
You take your time coming over here
I think that's for the best
Call, break it off
Call, break my own heart
Maybe I would have been something you'd be good at
Maybe you would have been something I'd be good at
But now we'll never know
I won't be sad
But in case I go there
Everyday, to make myself feel bad
There's a chance that I'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do
I'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do

alphienator @ 2009-04-21T02:14:00

2009-04-21T06:15:35Z

I hate that I get so easily hurt.. and I hold onto it.. I hate crying over stupid people that don't deserve me :(

first time at the beach.

2009-04-17T18:18:19Z

alphienator @ 2009-04-11T15:49:00

2009-04-11T19:49:52Z

I'm gonna get certified in massage therapy.. looks like all that time wasted spoiling silly girls is gonna pay off. :)

You should definitely

2009-03-30T05:26:09Z

Get your Masters... I would be so proud of you.. and so happy for you. ♥

alphienator @ 2009-03-29T13:28:00

2009-03-29T17:29:53Z

please :(

i miss you.

alphienator @ 2009-03-20T23:43:00

2009-03-21T03:45:56Z

i'm tired of pretending to be happy

i have no motivation.. no desire for anything.

alphienator @ 2009-03-20T21:02:00

2009-03-21T01:02:34Z

i wish we could talk

Christy..

2009-03-11T19:04:09Z

I want you to see my nephew, Adam Christopher :)

alphienator @ 2009-03-03T22:55:00

2009-03-04T03:56:10Z

i miss feeling alive.. i barely even want to take pictures anymore.